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- April 10th, 2006
K yeah, so first off, huge appologies for abandonig myspace/livejournal/AIM/etc...
So I am going to tell you what has been happening since the last 2 months, hah.
but the good news is, I will be coming home in two and a half weeks. The 26th, baby.
So, when we last left off, I was totally crushing on this kid Austin, right? Yeah, I really was. This was for the valentines formal. Dude, so yeah, I'm still alive ^_^ thank you all who responded to my last entry. I was gonna reply to you all but I have been, not around. And pretty confused and wondering what the heck happened. And then I was wondering how to respond!! But yeah,... since then, something completely turned around has happened.
I have completely fallen for Nathan.
Here's what happened:
So the night after that dance, I was feelin pretty bad about the thing with Austin. So I took Nathan aside and we went to Hogi Yogi and hung out there a while, and I soon realized that I would have so much more fun with him than with Austin anyway, and I asked him out! After a series of questions (mainly about austin) he agreed. He had told me he had a crush on me after telling him that I liked Austin. I totally don't like Austin anymore though. I'm still sad though that the 3 of us don't hang out anymore, but its ok because I really like Nathan, a LOT. We had our first kiss on Valentines day. It was so much fun.
I have never felt so dizzy after a kiss. I wanted it so bad
I think the reason I liked Austin so much was because I prevented myself from liking Nathan. I knew it was gonna happen anyway. I had that feeling from the very start of the friendship, but I just wanted what I couldn't have. Austin wasn't interested in me at all, and I knew it, looking back.
But I don't care anymore.
I have never felt like this before. I am in L-O-V-E, you guys.
We've spent everyday together since then. He's boosted my self confidence way up. He's made me into a stronger person mentally and physically. He's turned me into a person I didn't think I'd ever be in a hundred years. I honestly don't know what I would be doing if I wasn't going out with him or better yet, if I hadn't met him. He's a good guy.
On tuesday we will have been going out for two months. Its only two months but I feel like I have known him longer. We've done so much.
I appologize for the mushy entry, but this is so real, and it is happening to me.
Everyday I am with him I just love him more and more, and it doesn't stop growing. Sometimes I feel like I am going to explode if I don't stop loving him this much, but it doesn't stop (and I don't explode).
Anyway, I am going to be home between April 26th to May 3rd, so make room in your schedules for me hanging out time! That is a wednesday to a wednesday! Its gonna be so much fun. We need to have an anime marathon in there